Ok, I know I have posted this picture before, but I want to use it again. One day, I will do this, wear a red dress and go running (not exercise type running) on the beach at sunset. I will wait to do this for a few reasons - the first being it is too bloody cold to do this right now and second, I am not ready yet. I want to feel the moment and believe it. In order to do that I have to accomplish a few things first. I have a few goals that I want to reach in order to be free in that moment. The first one, is to be ready to do this on my 45th birthday this July. (anybody who wants to join me is more than welcome, just send me a message and I will tell you when and where)
The bigger idea is that I will be turning 45 and entering a new phase of my life. As I expect to live until at least 90 it is just the start of middle of my life, which I am looking forward to. Either that or if you believe our lives revolve in 27 year cycles, I will be ending the second an starting the 3rd...
Either way, I have no desire to be 25 again, nor do I want to be 75 quite yet *lol* What I want is to be the best me. I know, sounds Oprah'ish, but I am ok with that. I am not ashamed to admit I am enjoying her shows now that she no longer as "The Oprah Show". Her Master Class, Next Chapter, Lifeclass etc., are all the things I really want to know, right now, at this stage in my life. Yesterday I mentioned signs, and while this isn't a sign per se, it is in alignment to my journey right now, so I will go with this flow rather than push against it.
Another thing I am going to do is clarify some of my goals. I am basically saying it is a two tier approach, working on both the inside and the outside. I will start with the outside, because honestly, that is probably the easiest part of this journey.
1. While I won't give you my current weight, my goal is to lose 50 pounds from where I am today. So 10 pounds a month for 5 months. This is the weight I was before I got sick and had to shut my life down for 2 years while I recovered. My reasons for losing the weight are several. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin again. I want to live an active, healthy life and this extra weight prevents me from doing this. It affects my self confidence and how I view myself. Yes of course there are the vanity reasons, but I literally, physically want to get out of my own way.
So this means exercise and eating healthy. Nothing insane, just making life changes to incorporate exercise into my daily life. I will not follow any crazy diet, just make sensible choices. I know there will be days where I don't take any exerice and make some unhealthy food choices, but that is ok. I am going to try to release my all or nothing and in fact, follow more of an 80/20 rule. I mean it is a lifetime choice, not a prison term.
2. While I am working on the outside, it is just as important to work on the inside. So, I have given myself 4 daily tasks to build myself up. One of my favorite authors Debbie Ford * - has a few books I love, The Shadow Effect and the 21 Day Consciousness Cleanse. (there are others, but for today, I will start with the 21 Day Consciousness Cleanse only). At the same time, because I cannot do just one thing, I am going to explore Sun Tzu for Women. The third thing I will do is a gratitude journal and finally, I will take 15 minutes at the end of each day to meditate. I haven't done it in so long, I am going to have to re-learn how to quiet my mind to do this.
So... 5 things a day for me... that is the challenge, for 144 days.... here we go!
* Funny or not? After I finished writing this, I found out the Debbie Ford actually died on Monday. Rather than question it, I will accept as part of the journey. A "sign" I am on the right path for me - I am in the right place at the right time....either that, or it is simply confirmation that her life has meaning and while she is physically gone, her work has remained and will keep her alive to those of us who met her, spent time with her and to who she so graciously gave herself to. Thank you Debbie.
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