It's been a busy two weeks....

I would be remiss if I didn't start this posting with a message of love. Today would have been my fathers' 63rd birthday if he was still alive.

While we didn't always have the best of relationships while he was alive, we don't have one at all now - and trust me, that is worse.

I have his picture on the mantle and I talk to him now. I have the conversations with him that I wish we would have had while he was still alive.

I know somewhere he hears me and that we have both forgiven each other for our human frailties, imperfections and judgments. I also know that without a doubt I love my father very much, just as he loved me too. I now remember even the smallest of details of our relationship and cherish them, vow to hold on to them.

My only regret if that is the word to use, is that I came to this place of forgiveness and realization when it was too late to do anything about it. On some level I am still mourning the 'what could have been" as well as the man I knew and the man I wished I had known.

Perhaps that is what it should be...Happy Birthday Dad... I love you and miss you.

Now back to regular business where has the time gone? One of my wonderful friends took me to the taping of "Dr. John Gray - Women on Fire, Men on Ice" for PBS the other day. I love a lot of his relationship and life advise, and this was no different. What was different however was knowing you were being taped the entire time and the release of our images for future use. *lol*... I do now have to watch PBS to see what I can see. *lol*

As you all know it is my dream to be a successful, paid writer/author and while I continue to work in that regard, I have tried to figure out a way to keep myself in the "world loop" and be an active participant within it. I also wanted to feel like I was being productive financially and not just relying on my husband for support. That isn't to say he is anything but supportive in all ways, its just something I wanted to do, for me. So.. I started my own business.

The goal was to be able to work from home so I could continue writing as and when I wanted to, in order to get my books - both the childrens' books I do with another friend and the fiction novels I write myself, published and on their way to being New York Times best sellers. I also wanted to make some seed money so I could partner with my friend and open up a childrens' book store and continue to purchase investment properties.

So.. I put that out to the universe and within two days, had two paying clients. Right now we are hourly until we sort out the details of our situation together, but both clients want me on retainer for long term contracts.Then yesterday, seemingly out of nowhere I had another friend ask me if I would co-write a book with her. Absolutely! I can hardly believe it but I am truly excited about it and it feels good inside. I'm on my way and it feels wonderful and I am so very grateful. I have a wonderful life that I do not take for granted, even for a moment.

Well I should go for now, but I just wanted to share the joy I am feeling with those in my life. I wish the very same for each of you. We'll talk again soon.