Delicate balance of friendships

If you are like me you have a few good friends and many acquaintances. Despite your greatest hopes and desires, it seems so much harder to find the time to spend with the people that are your friends.

You never want to let them down by saying no and sometimes end up committing yourself to something you are not sure you can actually do or attend, because you don't want to hurt their feelings. Yet, you do when you have to cancel. Isn't that ironic, by trying not to mess things up you more than often end up doing that.

I got caught in another one of those Catch 22's today. Sometimes I think the hardest thing is to let the people you love and care about know how much they mean to you, when you cannot seem to see them or spend time with them. It's also hard to let them know you respect them and don't take them for granted when you have to continually cancel plans. The reasons for cancelling don't actually matter - its how you hurt those that you love that matter.

As with most things in life, friendships too are a delicate balance. I just trust that as we all move forward that we will find our way together, no matter what blocks are in our way. Perhaps learning to treat the time with friends as the priority it should be - will prevent it from being continually overshadowed by the call of business. Therein lies the struggle - the business pays for the time to spend with friends, yet without the friends it won't matter how well your business is going if you don't have anyone to share it with.

Lesson learned - wake up call received.