as my profile picture shows, i love dancing trees...but this is the newest one i have found and thought i would share it with you...it kind of goes with my thoughts for today... i wonder what it is within each of us that prevents us from automatically believing in ourselves. i don't mean externally because what we present externally shows that very well, but it is the internal part that confuses me. i am not aware of it, how it happens or how it was created... because i think if i had a choice i wouldn't do it any longer. i think today is the realization that i do have the choice to no longer feel this way. to no longer sabotage myself through my thoughts and actions (or inactions). it took me a long time to recognize my pattern, but now that i have recognized it i wonder how long it will take me to win over this next struggle.
i wonder why it is that we are never taught how to succeed, yet we instinctively and quite willingly see this in every other person in our life and support them happily. i wonder why we find it so hard to support ourselves. i have everything i ever wanted and more and i want to take the next step to the next level. i know that i am more than capable, i know that i am more than willing, i just need to get out of my own way. i have my own sky to reach and i want to do it ...
i know every step i take leads me closer to the next part on the journey. i have faith that there is enough time and that everything i need is either within me or available to me... perhaps that is where the chaos comes from... when things are going too well, we have been taught to question it and wonder when the other shoe is going to drop...
well i finally have the answer to that... and yes...i bought my own shoes.. so i know when they will drop... whether they are my new pradas or my two new pairs of manolo's....hmm... i guess i am already doing what i set out to do... have you seen my new shoes? *lol*
